Decision
Summative 2 has just passed last Monday, 5th of
june…Semester 2 is going to end soon. Think I did quite ok in this test, hope I
can get wat I hope I would get…hehe…
Time for me to think of my life since I’m starting my first
system course now. CVS Cardiovascular System. Lots of seniors told us don play
play. So maybe I just need to reschedule my activities a bit.
Tai Chi…To continue or not to continue?? This question has
been bugging me for quite a long time. Truthfully, I really like taichi. I made
this statement not to please anyone or to be a hypocrite. I joined something I really like.Just like gu zheng.
Even though I stopped learning gu zheng due to some circumstances, but I still
hope I can continue it some other time with a better teacher..By joining
taichi, I got to know lots of ppl. During the first lesson, I got to know shin
yin, chow chow, hui lin and siaw. I was so amazed as I din think that there
were co many ppl interested in taichi as we are still so young and public has
this impression that tai chi is for older ppl. Cmac is lucky to have many
dedicated ppl who are so passionate bout
learning taichi. But, I don think I have the quality and character to be in
this big family. Maybe I don deserve it, cos I don feel I’m one of them.and I
don like the feeling of being a “sha po” during training.CMAC family has its
own way of communicating but it seems that I cant communicate that way. I’ve
been thinking quite a lot whether to continue learning tai chi or not cos I
know I would let quite a number of ppl disappointed by quitting…but , if I’m
not happy while learning, I don think I would excel in it..So, I’ve made up my
mind to quit the club and stop tai chi.So, I made appointment with my sifu and
told him my decision. I made appointment with our president also to let him
know and also resign from my secretary post. I told them that I’m sorry and I
hope they won blame me. I felt guilty cos KL and DrTS made me feel that I’m
someone who could excel in martial arts. They were the ones who gave me
confidence.They remind me from time to time to practice and practice and
practice. Thought me a lot of new things. Maybe I’d make things worse by
quitting but thanks to Drts for being understanding as he told me it’s ok as
long as I’m happy with my decision. I had about an hour’s talk with them and
lastly I left the office by thanking and apologizing to them at the same time.
I cant describe my feeling after that. I felt like crying.Don ask me y, cos I
donno y..It’s like I’m leaving something I like very much.But then, I felt
relieved also.Don ask me y, cos I donno y also.Thanks to Robert, Ken, Chu Kin,
YY, Lilian and Kok Lim for being such good seniors during training. Thanks to
CC and HL,they made me feel that I’m not alone whenever taichi activities are
concern. Hope my friendship with CMAC members doesn’t end after I quitted the
club.I won forget that i enter a martial arts club before in my uni life.
Anyway, it’s a tueday that i
release this news to them. As normally, i have taichi lessons in
tuesday evening, i don have it for that day, i went to Bukit jalil to
swim. training for competitions?hmmmm…maybe need more training.
competition approaching..if still swim like this with the goggles kept
coming out after dive.. sure very paiseh….haha……
Erm…more time for me to buck up in the upcoming system
courses.
