Invincible!!!!

Coughing for almost one month made me depressed…It’s tough when i have to suppress my cough so that i won’t disturb others in the lecture hall, library or pbl…Going to O & C clinic twice didn’t seem to help at all…So, I had stopped all the medications and hoping that my "strong" body will fight by itself…I’m now literraly "combating" the cough…Haha…will I win? Hope i don’t have Tibi…But, I guess I’m taking cough as part of my life. It just won’t go away…I felt weird sometimes tho…Cos I will cough until awake in the middle of the night.Sometimes I cough non-stop too until almost asthmatic…But, I do not cough when i jog or swim…-.-lll…So, if i wanna stop coughing, i should jog and swim non-stop????-.-lll…sweat…

I miss the library……to be a library furniture from the  morning until the night…Haven’t been studying in the library since 3 weeks ago since i had started coughing like cow…cow?haha…(it just came into my mind suddenly)..sorry cow….=p….I shall go to the library and stay for the whole day when i stop coughing…=)

Sometimes, It’s just so rewarding when we do something without hoping for the best outcome…I had this experience yesterday…I was never a fan for "Transformer"…Listening to the conversation between Jem, YS and Prasad that night after Ocean’s 13 about Transformers, I really get to understand the feeling of a patient listening to doctors using medical jargons…The feeling of "total-blankness" about the "robots" topic…How they transform and their sophisticated names…YUP…So, having no expectations for the movie and also slight denial to go because of my cough, I was so reluctant to go for the movie…I was also thinking of giving up the ticket cos i don wan to cough all the way in the movie which i’m not interested in watching…But, in the end I still went for the movie…

I felt happy and relieved that i went for it…It wasn’t just not disappointing but it was also great…The best movie I’ve ever watched since Sem 4 started…The noble Optimus Prime and its fellow friends, The human who was weak in the beginning but turned into a hero in the end, a nice storyline and the robot-fighting… I was just amazed by the way they transform..from gigantic robots into things as small as a handphone..Cars, radio, truck, jets….etc etc…Sometimes, they transform into their normal forms to fight and they transform to various things to camouflage…I wonder would it be great if we can be like transformers too?…hmmm…………..(^.^)

Being in such a depressed mood recently, transformers brighten up my day. I was happy to realise that i made a right decision to go for the movie…Sometimes, it’s these small little things in life that made us happy and to get away from the busy, hectic and depressed daily life…

It was Transformer’s day and

Transformers made my day…=)

When u start to take a step back to look at the problem, analyse it, but still had no solution to it and u know that u have to take it that way.
If u’re able or forced to do it,
U’ve grown up…

When u start to know that there are unsolvable problems in ur life but u know that u shouldnt think of it too much or show it on ur face and u try ur best to do it,
U’ve grown up…

When u try very hard to be happy cos u know that no matter how hard u try, it doesnt take solely ur strength to make things right, but u’re able to tell urself not to bug on it,
U’ve grown up…

When people close to u or elder to u start to tell u their problems and hope that u can solve it or understand, but u know u cant solve or choose not to understand,
hmmm….
maybe this time, u’re actually growing up but refuse to…
U’ve grown up anyway (in other ppl’s mind)

Is this growing up?Is this wat we’re going to face if we grow up…
Sometimes, i just feel like being a stubborn, snobbish girl who selfishly refuse to grow up…
But, I know i can’t…

It is when u know u’re facing a problem,
U’re trying hard to solve it,
But no matter how hard u try, u can’t,
But u know that u have to be strong and try even harder to solve it,
Get on with ur life,
Do the things u should do,
Study the things u should study,
Get the degree u should get,
Be happy, be jovial, be grateful,
It is when all this happen together,

U know that u’re growing up or u’ve already grown up…

What if…
What if…
Just what if…
One day, something bad or worse or worst thing happen which is worse enough until even a grown up person cannot take it??

~~~Counting each day to pass…………
~~Waiting for the sun to come out……….
~So that "depressing-evil" shy away………….
So that =) =) =) =) come again…………………

Chronic Coughing makes me depressed…

Sigh………………

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