Invincible!!!!

2 weeks has passed since selectives had started. It was like
yesterday when we stepped out of MPH after renal assessment. Time really flies.
I think I should say that it “pecut”…=)…like a rocket…haha…

The weekend back home was a joyful one. Filling with energy
and courage to go back and solve the “problem”. Had a long long talk with my
pa..especially the time spent in the car when dad drove me to collect the
tourism things, and the time spent when I cycled beside my pa when he
jogged…Although things didn’t turn out the best it could be, but it certainly
turn out better than what I hoped for…Thanks pa for sharing ur thoughts with
me, for confiding in me while giving me advice for the future…As for ma, I’ll
always be by ur side to listen to ur “grumbles”…That’s all I can do now…And
trust me, I’m a good listener. Hope that I could relieve ur burden by listening…

Came back to Uni after replenishing my energy from home…Busy
schedule awaiting for me. Scared and apprehensive at first with the workload
and energy-needy activities. The first few days of selectives weren’t too happy
as there were many things left undecided. But, things turn out well when we
keep hanging on till the end. Ahhh….=)…at last, on Friday, everything was
settled…=)

Thanks Maggie for designing the bookmarks and altering the
colours and designs according to our needs.

Thanks Mus for drawing the Icons.

Thanks Chow for suggesting the meeting to finalize the
decision to Perhentian Island.(it made my work
much much easier—can’t wait for the perhentian trip)

Then, Saturday was Mapcu swimming comp. Having all the
butterflies in my stomach before the comp, I certainly wasn’t in the best mood
to swim. I had the feeling of “putting worms into own anus”—according to Jackie
is “finding ur own trouble”…cos I decided to join 2 individual events and 1 relay (due to
unknown reasons—maybe just to try)…It was a bit taxing as I had not swim that
much of competitive events before. A bit regretted when I reached INTI..Feel
nauseated, I kept asking to go home. Even Paul and Mus who went there as
supporters find it funny tho…hee… New lessons learnt!!! “Things always turn out
to be better than expected when we always prepare for the WORST”..It proved to
be absolutely correct…I turn out to win 2 bronze medals. I won my first ever
individual swimming medal. 100m breaststroke…I am a kampung swimmer…A lousy
diver as mus always laughed at me for having big splashes when I “plunged” into
the water…Altho I won cos there were only 5 competitors in that event, but I’m
already contented…Before the competition, all I had in mind was—first, jumped
into the water and be thankful that my goggles are still on. Second, being able
to finish the 100m and not cramping halfway through the swim. And lastly,
getting out from the pool…It was a super-duper bonus when I even get a medal
from it…ok…I’m just happy that I’m lucky…=)…Furthermore, our IMU swimming team
even got 3^rd place overall….What a day!!!=)

I called my dad when I finished my first event to “demand”
for encouragement…haha…I got to talk to my mum too…I felt so happy when my dad
passed his phone to my mum…=)…

That night’s dinner was curry fish
head…Super-delicious…..Ahhh………

What a day!!!!

The second week of selectives went on full of activities
too…with cheerleading practice, basketball training, volleyball and etc.
etc….Not to forget the kite-flying time, meeting up with my dad for just
tiny-30-minutes…getting loads of mangosteen and rambutans…and falling sick on
Wednesday…slept for 13 hours on that day, cough and flu came back to find me
again…was depressed for one day…and then sprang back to happy-chia huan on
Friday…

Sorry Mus, for getting angry on Wednesday cos I really
wasn’t in the mood to play with u and listening to ur stupid jokes…Sometimes, u really deserve
some scoldings although u were only joking.

One more week to the completion of Malaysian Studies
Project…=)

Two more weeks to Perhentian Island Trip…=)

Two weeks and three more days to going back home…=)

Three more weeks to starting of Sememster 5…=/

Six more months to leaving IMU…=(

P/S : - Always prepare for the worst, and hope for the
best!!!

- Friends are of utmost
importance when we’re away from home…

=)

It has been such a long time i had this kind of feeling. A feeling of relief and happiness. A feeling of bravery in facing oncoming problems.

First of all, I have something to announce here. I think I have recovered from my chronic cough!!!Coughing for less than 5 times in a day was really an achievement for me…haha…progressing from "poly-cough" for almost 6 weeks to "oligo-cough" to "an-cough"… I’m going to win the battle against the "cough-devil"!!!"cough-cough" is going to disappear from my life!!!nobody will laugh at me and say tat i have tibi again…i don have to worry about spreading it to other ppl again…I don have to worry about disturbing my friends in lectures again….
Haha…maybe i’m blogging too much about cough…But,it was really a "big-thing" in my recent life…Hmmmm…Will i feel uneasy or miss my "cough"??cos i’ve already used to coughing…"cough" have been accompanying me for such a long time…-.-lll….*sweat*.. Chia Huan is thinking too much again…But, It’s surely nice to not have something always irritating ur throat, triggering ur cough reflex, having to cough in the middle of the night and wake up, to not have a nice, deep sleep….hmmm…nice!!

Thanks to Paul’s antitussive pill.I think it really works…=)
Thanks to my housemate, sansan’s mucolytic pills…=)
Thanks to Dr O & C. altho after giving me 8 drugs after the 2 visits i still cough for 2 months…=)
Thanks to Han for putting up with my "forever-annoying-coughing". I don think my lung is "hollow" like wat u always say when i cough really badly. I’ve got a "strong-lung" u know? hohoho…=) and by the way, u, me and winnie aren’t of the same height!!!haha…
Thanks to all my friends who were concerned and cared about me…=)

Enough of blogging about "coughing"…I’m sure u find it darn boring about seeing the word "cough" a million times up here…anyway,

I’m the healthy Chia Huan again…=)

Tomorrow is renal’s EOC…Renal is really a killer system. Although we only had 22 lectures, but it still pain us because the physiology and pathology are really hard… Hope that the entire M205 will survive through tomorrow’s paper…Good luck everybody!!

We’ll be getting our reproductive EOC results tomorrow too… The graph for the entire batch results is out on the notice board and we have 126 ppl with A and 30+ with A-…FYI, our total number of students is 180..So, it’s around 70 % of the entire class got A, A- results…Don’t play play with M205…indeed, after knowing this i felt happy to be in a batch with so many good students.. But, on the other hand it worries me too cos i will have to fight really hard to get into the Partner Medical School that i want…As u see, Sem 4 is ending and we’ll be applying for our PMS in 2 months time which will determine where will I be probably in the next 5 years…So, which PMS will i end up in is really an important issue to me…

All i can do is just do my best and hope for the best…=)

Jogging in the commonwealth park can make me happy too…(guess i’m an easily happy person and easily sad as well)…Have been seeing a lot of batchmates jogging recently…Jem, Paul, Seb, Zam, Jaslyn, Uwen, and Kee Fong!!!I donno wat makes me happy by seeing them jogging also…Just felt that being in an environment with ppl that i’m familiar with makes me happy…=)

Basketball makes me happy too…Not forgetting to mention that volleyball which i just took up since sem4…Thanks to Lishan and lydia for inviting me into the team…Lishan for teaching me all the techniques…Setting, digging, serving, spiking and "zuk"..haha…although i injured my "precious-thumb" last week, and it still hurts until now…I still like it….

"Physical health is affected by one’s emotions"…That’s wat a friend told me recently…A friend who was brave enough to tell me wat he has in his mind…A friend who triggered me to face the problem which i have been trying to hide and avoid recently…A friend who made me happy…Should i be saying thanks to this friend? I guess yes…Although he maybe too straightforward, not subjective, not thinking in other ppl’s shoes, but i still gotta thank him for reminding me that avoiding a problem is not solving it…Thanks…

San ge is coming back from Sabah!!!I’m going back to JB tomorrow!!!Together we shall solve the problem…or more importantly if we really can’t solve it, we should learn to live with it happily….

Learn to live with it happily…..=)

P/S: Harry potter is out!!!!!!=)=)
It seems like there are too many good things happened recently which made me to have no reasons not to feel happy….Yeah…I know, It’s Harry Potter’s magic!!!=)

Coughing for almost one month made me depressed…It’s tough when i have to suppress my cough so that i won’t disturb others in the lecture hall, library or pbl…Going to O & C clinic twice didn’t seem to help at all…So, I had stopped all the medications and hoping that my "strong" body will fight by itself…I’m now literraly "combating" the cough…Haha…will I win? Hope i don’t have Tibi…But, I guess I’m taking cough as part of my life. It just won’t go away…I felt weird sometimes tho…Cos I will cough until awake in the middle of the night.Sometimes I cough non-stop too until almost asthmatic…But, I do not cough when i jog or swim…-.-lll…So, if i wanna stop coughing, i should jog and swim non-stop????-.-lll…sweat…

I miss the library……to be a library furniture from the  morning until the night…Haven’t been studying in the library since 3 weeks ago since i had started coughing like cow…cow?haha…(it just came into my mind suddenly)..sorry cow….=p….I shall go to the library and stay for the whole day when i stop coughing…=)

Sometimes, It’s just so rewarding when we do something without hoping for the best outcome…I had this experience yesterday…I was never a fan for "Transformer"…Listening to the conversation between Jem, YS and Prasad that night after Ocean’s 13 about Transformers, I really get to understand the feeling of a patient listening to doctors using medical jargons…The feeling of "total-blankness" about the "robots" topic…How they transform and their sophisticated names…YUP…So, having no expectations for the movie and also slight denial to go because of my cough, I was so reluctant to go for the movie…I was also thinking of giving up the ticket cos i don wan to cough all the way in the movie which i’m not interested in watching…But, in the end I still went for the movie…

I felt happy and relieved that i went for it…It wasn’t just not disappointing but it was also great…The best movie I’ve ever watched since Sem 4 started…The noble Optimus Prime and its fellow friends, The human who was weak in the beginning but turned into a hero in the end, a nice storyline and the robot-fighting… I was just amazed by the way they transform..from gigantic robots into things as small as a handphone..Cars, radio, truck, jets….etc etc…Sometimes, they transform into their normal forms to fight and they transform to various things to camouflage…I wonder would it be great if we can be like transformers too?…hmmm…………..(^.^)

Being in such a depressed mood recently, transformers brighten up my day. I was happy to realise that i made a right decision to go for the movie…Sometimes, it’s these small little things in life that made us happy and to get away from the busy, hectic and depressed daily life…

It was Transformer’s day and

Transformers made my day…=)

When u start to take a step back to look at the problem, analyse it, but still had no solution to it and u know that u have to take it that way.
If u’re able or forced to do it,
U’ve grown up…

When u start to know that there are unsolvable problems in ur life but u know that u shouldnt think of it too much or show it on ur face and u try ur best to do it,
U’ve grown up…

When u try very hard to be happy cos u know that no matter how hard u try, it doesnt take solely ur strength to make things right, but u’re able to tell urself not to bug on it,
U’ve grown up…

When people close to u or elder to u start to tell u their problems and hope that u can solve it or understand, but u know u cant solve or choose not to understand,
hmmm….
maybe this time, u’re actually growing up but refuse to…
U’ve grown up anyway (in other ppl’s mind)

Is this growing up?Is this wat we’re going to face if we grow up…
Sometimes, i just feel like being a stubborn, snobbish girl who selfishly refuse to grow up…
But, I know i can’t…

It is when u know u’re facing a problem,
U’re trying hard to solve it,
But no matter how hard u try, u can’t,
But u know that u have to be strong and try even harder to solve it,
Get on with ur life,
Do the things u should do,
Study the things u should study,
Get the degree u should get,
Be happy, be jovial, be grateful,
It is when all this happen together,

U know that u’re growing up or u’ve already grown up…

What if…
What if…
Just what if…
One day, something bad or worse or worst thing happen which is worse enough until even a grown up person cannot take it??

~~~Counting each day to pass…………
~~Waiting for the sun to come out……….
~So that "depressing-evil" shy away………….
So that =) =) =) =) come again…………………

Chronic Coughing makes me depressed…

Sigh………………

=(

The Strength of a Man

The strength of a man isn’t seen in the width of his shoulders.
It’s seen in the width of his arms that circle you.

The strength of a man isn’t in the deep tone of his voice.
It’s seen in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn’t in how many buddies he has.
It’s seen in how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn’t in how respected he is at work.
It’s seen in how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn’t seen in how hard he hits.
It’s seen in how tenderly he touches.

The strength of a man isn’t seen in the hairs on his chest.
It’s seen in the heart…that lies within his chest.

The strength of a man isn’t by how many women he’s loved.
It’s seen in how he can be true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn’t in the weight he can lift.
It’s in the burdens he can carry.

There were once a beautiful cup and an invincible glue…

One day, due to unknown reasons the beautiful cup is broken…broken at the part where the handle is connected to the cup’s body…

So, if ppl use the cup now they would be cut because the connecting part to the handle is no longer smooth and it may cut u…The handle has been feeling fed-up to help the cup to be user-friendly…so, the handle continues to find many other cups.

The glue has always been very willing to help glue broken things together cos it’s its job…Even though the glue knew that a broken cup may never be as perfect as before but at least with using a glue to stick them together the broken cup may be less harmful…

Now, the handle and cup refuse to stay together as a cup…

Of course, the glue felt sad at first but then it began to accept the fact that broken things can choose to stay broken too..it’s their choices…

But, just as the glue started to accept the fact that broken things may sometimes hurt ppl and may never be as smooth as before…

One day, the glue was forced to choose between the handle and the cup…either glue the handle or glue the cup?

As u know, a glue’s job is to bring broken things back together, make amends and to stay between them so that everything will be usable again….

The glue feels sad, idiotic and useless…

How can a glue choose???

Cos things won’t work if u ask a glue to choose…

Things won stick together again if u ask a glue to choose…

So, please….please don ask a glue to choose….

Please…

The glue is going to lose its ownself soon…cos the glue has been using too much to glue other things together…the glue has its own "glue-family" to take care of…

Even though a glue doesn’t speak much…It has its own problems too…the glue wants to have its own life too…

The glue wants to be useful…

The glue feels useless and stupid…

The glue needs to be more "mind-ur-own-business" and less kepo…

but, the glue feels sad for not doing its job smoothly…

Life is really a roller coaster…

U may be of ur happiest mood in the morning…

But,

Of the worst at night…

I’m so so happy today….

Happy and proud that i got to finish the 15km run…altho i wasn’t the best among IMU runners…

but…something happened which made me feel…

happy and relief that i could face it.=)

happy and satisfy with my reactions.=)

happy and glad that i had the courage to move on.=)

happy and grateful that there isn’t tiny bit of hatred in my heart.=)

happy and triumph that i actually buried that hatchet.=)

happy and just solely happy that it’s really over.=)

I’m just so lucky to realise it…=)

I’m grateful that i’m lucky…Yay!!!!!!

2 weeks of holidays is ending in 2 days time…

and i think i still have tonnes of things in my mind which i had planned to do in this holiday but still hanging there…=p

I wanted to tidy my wardrobe so that my mum will stop her nagging…

I wanted to try out the new tiramisu recipe…

I wanted to scan my "toitose-speed" computer…

I wanted to buy a new table lamp…

I wanted to learn some new piano songs…

I wanted to watch music and lyrics…

I wanted to watch pirates of the carribean 1&2

I wanted to watch Spiderman 3…

I wanted to read a book…

I wanted to figure out some solutions to some problems…

HAH!!!!Shame on me…I guess i didn’t even do half of them due to…..er…….i think i was just lazy….All i did for this holiday was watch tv…online…and watching more tv…and more and more tv….=p

and i’m going back to bukit jalil in less than 48 hours time…guess i’m just too pro in wasting time…and according to mum…i’m just "recharging" myself before i go back and start studying again…hee…=) thanks mum for being so understanding…=)

at least i’m ready to go back…packed up my feelings and emotions…..yeepee!!!ready to go back for my 2nd half of fourth semester…2 weeks…thoughts to be think through…feelings to be "arranged"… and emotions to be controlled…guess i’ve done that throughout this holiday…I’m invincible again!!!!wahahaha…..ok…"i know u’re sweating!!" -.-lll

Had been meeting up with my secondary school friends recently as they were having their LONG holidays…2 months…so lucky right?to imagine that i won be having any long holidays from now on…sigh…catching up with them..listening to a lot of stories and knowing that everyone are well made me feel happy…most of them will be graduating next year and will be entering into the working society…altho some of them are already working…best of luck, friends!!!=)

And…I will be going back to bukit jalil on sunday morning…